February 16, 2010

I saw a jar of "non-peanut" peanut butter at the store just now. For real? I mean what is peanut butter without the peanuts? It is a crazy thought, but that is not what this is about. =)

Yesterday I said life is a challenge, and for me one of the biggest challenges is being too busy. It seems like every day I work overtime, come home and get housework or errands done, then its bed time and I have to do it all again. Does life ever slow down?

I think I need a vacation. The Caribbean would be nice and, believe it or not, I have great friends who live in St. Lucia. Wouldn't it be nice to get away from the foot of snow (RIP record breaking Texas snowmen)and all this coldness, only to go lay on a sunny beach and do NOTHING but listen to the waves with your eyes closed? I think that is EXACTLY what I need. Unfortunately I have yet to find a physician to prescribe such treatment, and therefore my work won't go for it. =/

Anyway, back to life being busy. Tomorrow is Wednesday, and Wednesdays are by FAR the busiest days of my week. Not only do I have to endure crazy managers with unreal deadlines in a frenzy that somehow involves me all day long, but then I have to FORCE them to let me leave ON TIME. Why??? Because IF I leave on time, then I can go home for ten minutes to change out of my ugly Walmart blue and khaki and into something decent. Then I get to drive around town for two hours picking up loads full of teenagers to get them to church on time. This is IF I got to leave work on time and IF there is no major traffic, which is a joke because at that time there is ALWAYS major traffic in my ginormous city.

Sometimes I wonder why I do it. I mean, I would much rather come home, take my time, SHOWER, and get to looking (and feeling) absolutely stunning before venturing out to church. I would much rather chill out and think in my car, not having my radio station/song selection scoured over by ten critical minds. I would much rather worry about my own problems and work out how to solve them than listen to high school gossip... right?

No.

When I was a teenager, the world offered me loads of trouble. The only time I accepted the offers was when I was not in church. Key people made a difference in my life, and who knows where I would have been if someone would not have put up with my gossip, music critiques and seemingly HUGE teenage issues. I would have been very, very lost.

I used to think that I wanted to be the kind of person that was written about in history books; someone that people would ALWAYS remember. Now I realize that with one lasting mark left on a person, I can live on forever, in a positive way, whether people know who I am or not. I would rather listen to high school gossip than see that same kid go home and cut themselves over problems that no one else seems to care about.

Once I posted a status on Facebook that said, "Have you encouraged someone today?". People laughed at it, my own sister included, but I was serious. What is life if we can't help each other?

Let me encourage you tonight, to reach out to someone you care about. Life may be busy but it is never too busy to be a friend to someone. You never know what may be going on in their life.

THANK YOU to all of those people who bothered to reach out to me (you know who you are) and shaped me into the person I am today. I may not be where I want to be yet, but I'm still working on it.